Hmmm...Juz wanna write about something tat have been on my mind lately.Let me tell a story: A and B were best friends.. things had gone bad nsour btw them b4 but they still are best friends thru poly years...Aint we suppose to be best fren?Aint we suppose to be there for one other?But in the end, they ended up like strangers... A dun even have B number.. B change the number again w/o informing A... it kinda of hurt A.. and somehow A still felt the pain ..Strange .. Why is it that best friends can turn into totally strangers becos of such small things.A wonder if whether is she so selfish to be angry over B over such a small lie.. A been telling herself tat it juz a lie.. but why is there a need for lie?Why is it that things turn out this way. Been thru making up the mind of not ever meetin B. but sometimes, A still wonder how she is. Maybe B too.. maybe it juz something somehow tat A n B are nv meant to be friends.. Looking back at the memories, A realise that ever since they work in the same company, things have gone strange.. There are times where B doesnt even smile at A when in workplaceThere are times where B doesnt even talk at A when in workplaceThere are times where A n B juz walk pass each other w/o eye contact.............So where does the problem lies on?Is it ever since b4 the lie, both of them have already drifted apart or there are already some non-visible problem between them..I duno.. cos it a story.. hahaLame me..
Time: 1102pmToday: Im supposed to be going out with my eve n meow for shoppingBut: I ended up at my auntie houseToday: Suppose to slp till noon timeBut: I ended up wakin up around 9 to do some callings for my dad n to go down to MANGO to do something to my SHORT!I shud be more observant nxt time.. payin more attention to small details... Sometimes i feel that gods have a part in planing n making 1 life miserable or happy..
We totally have no control of wat is going to happen in the next min ...
We totally have no control of wat going to happen ...
Sometimes some things as stupid as wat had happen to my shorts is an example.. real life example.
Today: Suppose to be happily having dinner n lunch cooked by my auntieBut: after a heavy real heavy lunch, i have diarrheo.. not realli diarreheo but my tummy juz feel so bloated n pain.. hai.. n ends up not havin my dinner!!
But i still have my dinner la.. around 7plus 8.. haha
How can i survive w/o dinner! hee
Today: Suppose to have my nap on my aunt bed.. love tat bedBut: i din, partly becos of bloated tummy n my cousins..
woh, they love to talk.. talk .. talk.. talk... like houseflies around me.. bzzz... bezzz.. bzzz.. scary!
haha.. but as a good sis, definitely i will entertain them la.. hai.. poor thing me.. duno wat go over my head today tat im so nice to them.. actualli listen n tok to them.. kaoz!End of a boring Day of my life~Ta-daa~ Waiting for another boring day to approach me...
Time:932amyawnz.. damn tired as i reached home real late last nite! argh.. why cant i slp more.. realli dun appreaciate ppl smsing me in the morning.. realli! but too bad, i got frens tat love to do that.. wat can i do~ they are my frens.. Another 1 week plus will be my birhtday, yet nobody ask me wat i wan.. hee.. so the hyper dyper sensitive me shall make my birthday wish here n hope my babies will all be able to see it~ hhaha.. so here it goes:-
1) A Mp3
2) Adidas jacket
3) Clarins bust firming gel (finishin mine soon)
4) Palmtop Organiser
5) Digital Camera
6) Watch
7) The thing that i ask nette to buy for me
8) Maybe a big fat angbao... haha..
Nette, if u see this, i realli wan tat.. hee lazy me la.. hmmm.. for all the aboves bag wallet n watch, moi shall not disclose the brands.. haha.. cos i know no1 will buy.. :p Nahz, i oso wun wan my babies to spend so much as i know all of us are broke.. hmm.. Birthday coming soon.. ah.. scary double digits.. scary.. how i wish my back to 18 where there simply lesser troubles n problems n responsiblities to handle.. hahaFat hope!
Hmmm..Have been using my new desktop rather den my laptop anymore..Somehow my laptop become obsolete... hmmm.. My dee said that im a bad owner.. "xi xing yan jiu"Am i ??
Think im having some problems with my tempers lately..Seems to get angry with the smallest possible things tat happen to me~Shall not announce it here.. :PGot to do something to stop it.. hmm.. wat can i do le?Really duno how.. every small things can prick on my nerves n make me feel so irritated n frustrated.. i dun mean to have a long black face or sound unhappy.. juz tat at that particular pt of time, im realli not happi n im someone that shows all my feelings on my face.. U all shud noe i have alot of face expressions 1 rite..Hmmm..Argh.. realli got to do something to control my temper.. feeling hyper sensitive lately.. damn it!Shall do some meditation?? Ommm.. Ommm.. Ommmm..No use.. Best solution is to Eat my Fav Ice Cream~ Macadamia Nutz.. hahahaThinkin of it brings a smile to my face.. wahahahaOkie okie.. enuff of my nonsense..
Time:6:58pmMood: Nothing Much..Went out early in the morning to swim with nette n xin.. tired.. hop into bed immediately when i reached home.. i eyes were already half way close when im on the way back home~ Cant really swim much.. tired.. too long nv exercise n xin say god is punishing me for being late.. onli her think of such reasons.. haha.. bleahzXin cooked fantastic food! Yummy.. but think it fattening ba.. hee Nette bought rice dumplings.. yummy.. me prefer the black 1.. even though nette still duno wat the diff btw the 2 diff types.. i simply love the hmmm... brown 1?? hee..Nxt time, i shall bring something too~ thinking hard :PAlrite, 1 stupid guy sms me back again.. n all i thot he is already happily back with his gf.. n he still dare to call me dear, still dare to say wanna accompany me.. damn him manoh boy, how dumb can i get!When you left I lost a part of meIt’s still so hard to believeDun Come back baby please causeWe DUN belong togetherWho else am I gonna lean on when times get roughWho’s gonna talk to me on the phoneTill the sun comes upWho’s gonna take your placeThere ain’t nobody better ( .... )Oh baby baby We DUN belong togetherDeep in me, i noe tat i still like him (merely as a fren).. sometimes wonder if i juz enjoy the attention given.. but.. alot of buts..It hurting me.. when U love someone who already have that particular someone in his life.. his a J**k! But ...Been thru cryin myself to slp.. been thru denying all the stupid shit.. been thru getting stronger..
How i wish he can really disappear.. but .. as i said, alot of buts.. i dun wanna lose a fren.. i love company even though i hate crowds n human beings... Argh!! stupid & weird me~
I cried last nite..WHY?It all becos of "Meet Joe Black" I know it an old show, but the storyline still touches my heart.. bittersweet love~It hard to let go becos tat's LIFE.We can love someone so deeply even though we know its wrong from the start, the wrong place at the wrong time with a wrong person.Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived. I wanna something like above.. but i know it impossible cos the rational me wun dare to take such risks.Joe Black: I don't care Bill. I love her. William Parrish: How perfect for you - to take whatever you want because it pleases you. That's not love. Joe Black: Then what is it? William Parrish: Some aimless infatuation which, for the moment, you feel like indulging - it's missing everything that matters. Joe Black: Which is what? William Parrish: Trust, responsibility, taking the weight for your choices and feelings, and spending the rest of your life living up to them. And above all, not hurting the object of your love. Joe Black: So that's what love is according to William Parrish? William Parrish: Multiply it by infinity, and take it to the depth of forever, and you will still have barely a glimpse of what I'm talking about. Sweetilicious~
Time: 1.52amMood: SlpySo Y aint i slping at this quiet hour of the nite, aint beauty slp a big big thing for me?Yeah, it still is.. but i need to dry my hair first.. and my hair take ages to get dry.. haizWat been happening lately?Too many thing... Finished my last paper on the 1st of june, since then i've been slackin.. not realli using my brain.. haha.. something which i enjoy doing the most.. "not using my brain"Okie, lately my fren loved to tease me regarding my "ear deaf" thingy.. dun realli find it funny, cos do think its logical.. translate it into chinese will be "er long" or in english will be "ear deaf"! haha.. so its logical for me to say it out this way :PPeople dream dreams... Different people dream of different types of dream.. Like me, i onli dream of simple, real life stuffs.. maybe will have some surreal things in it like maybe im in another stage of my life... working life etc.. But i do have frens that have "strange" dreams, like gotten in a maze tryin to get out of it.. Isnt it cool.. how i wish i have such dreams.. something tat i wun get to experience it in real life, will wan to experience it in a dream.. hee "strange me"Things have been going smoothly for me.. not much ups or downs.. simple and im loving it.. except for the recently stupid shit tat i had created and causes me to burn a big hole in my pocket! damn! Anything else but tat, im having a simply contented life right now.. onli "right now" cos i now the "simply unsatisfied n constantly changing mind ME" is going to form, and create some stupid execuses in hating my life again..
Just before those stupid excuses starts appearing in my mind, heart and brain, im going to continue to enjoy n love my life~
