Something bothering me.
I hate finding out stuffs bout ppl sayin behind my back.
I know it inevitable in this society.
In this realistic cruel world.
But i never thot friends will say that.
I rather U said it infront of me.
Rather behind my back.
And everyone making me as a joke!
I hate it!
All i know aint friend suppose to be good to each other.
And i duno who the person is.
But the person must be someone close to me as we r hanging out in the same group.
The same group that almost meet up every week.
Why do i have to know bout this.
And yet, the person who told me this doesnt wan to tell me who is tat person!!
Argh.. im blabbering!!
I hate this feeling.
Who am i suppose to trust?
FRiends?
Bimbo : used especially of an attractive but empty-headed person
I hate this word tat being used on me!!!
I've found someone
who can make me smile like a fool.
Hi all,
Please rem to mourn for me
I think in a few mths time
I will cease to exist
Im freaking scaring myself to death
All those notes..
The scent of papers..
The stacks n stacks of notes..
And now im still online..
Thots..
Occupyin my mind..
Laziness..
IN my bones n blood
I juz wan u all out there to know
No matter wat
I will remember and love u all out there!!!!
Pls, rem to miss me.hahaha...
Another lame entry.. hahaha
sounds pathetic din i?
sounds so weirdo din i?
hahaha...
quick quick
scold me hit me bite me
kick me hard in my ass..
i might even return a sweet smile
and i beary hug..
:P
Let me teach u all some meanings of the words: Snap : to utter sharp biting words : bark out irritable or peevish retorts
Misinterpret : to understand wrongly, to explain wrongly
Friendship Love : affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests
Self denial : a restraint or limitation of one's own desires or interests
Contradict : to imply the opposite or a denial of ______________________________________Due to some misinterpretation of my snappingIt causes some unhappiness felt in the matters of heartWhich im totally unaware of. Insensitive i still am.Self denial.All my frens dun like me for that.I juz simply dun like visiting the doc.I juz simply love the ignore signs of sickness.And also simply alot of signs.I love to contradict.Is it not. ?
It juz because i always fight alone with myLogical rational and Emotional feelings side.But im glad we sms it out.Small matters it is.Somehow i feel happy that my fren is not too happy bout it.Cause it means she cares.And the worst thing isI onli snapped at ppl i love.I duno why.Maybe i expect more from loved ones.Maybe i juz expect them to understand.Tats why i treat my mum n dad so fierce.HahahaSo all shall be honoured k!Love ya all.. n i felt loved.
Mood: Troubled? Confused.
Was on the fone
Mummy questioned me
" Are you tokin to girl or guy? "
My answer
" Guy "
Actual fact
" It a girl "
The fact kinda hit me
Wat am i suppose to do?
Am i suppose to carry on.
Risking it?
Am i willing to make the risk?
Am i brave enuff to brave the risk?
Im not a good person in hiding stuffs.
....
Brooding.
I felt love from her.
______________________
Was kinda feelin weak lately.
Why is tat so?
She said i "fa ren"
but i din had much heaty stuffs ar..
hmmmm
I appreciate the care n concern she showed me.
I knw u will be reading my blog,
so.. thanks baby.. hehe
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Time for me to totally cut my relationship with Mr. D
He sux..
Period.
Wat been happening lately?
I've been hanging out close with a fren.
A fren tat been freakin sweet to me.
A fren tat make me smile.
A fren tat accompany me.
A fren tat help me read my notes.
But all in all,
Wat gonna happen?
I see nothing in front of the road.
Seriously, been asked by lots.
I do seriously like my fren.
As a fren or more den a fren.
More than a fren it is.
But all in all,
Wat gonna happen?
I cant cross the barrier.
Frens out there think
im playful,
im flirting,
im bitch,
im slut,
but im juz living for the moment,
doin wat my feelings ask me to do.
Holdin her hands at tat point of time
juz seems so right.
wat am i suppose to do now?
Shall i let myself sink in deeper
or pull myself out of it?
the problem is
"I really dunno"
brooding...
