Was reading my previous post.. love the way they brings back memories.
I still believe in aliens
I am still me.. but i have mellow down.
My B is away.
I got a taste of without someone in my life.
I spent time at home. I meet up with fen.
I had lunch/ dinner with her family.
Which is something i haven done in ages.
As i grow older, time seems to past and slip away faster.
Every monday to fri.. i work my arse off till 8plus almost everyday. i dun have time to watch tv shows. i dun have time to sit in front of my tv. why? is it becos i got bad time management?
My life had became more and more dulllllll....
If last time my life is grey, think now it shud be dark grey to black.. bored. period.
Nevertheless, she did bring some colours to my life.
Just felt like typing.. been a long time since i realli feel like writing.
wat the diff btw a girl and a boy?
alotsa difference. there are something a guy can gives u and a girl cant
and there are things where a girl can and a guy cant.
nevertheless, the love i had now is something that the society wun agree. is something that my family wun noe. if we ever break up it might be a dark secret that i will keep with me forever. she once ask me, will i go with another girl, last time my ans is strictly no. but now, haha.. no idea.
shit , think it the damn nite that makes me spill everything out here. mb it the fact that i love reading the past entries and know how i feel at that moment of time.
i had always dream of getting married, have a baby and divorce.. weird? but thats me. it still unchanged .. but will i bear to give her up? i dun think so. im so selfish.. im so scared i wun find a one that loves me as much as she do.
sometimes, i wonder to myself. will there be a guy to treat me as good as her. somehow i find it impossible. i cant compare. cos girl and guy are different. different entity. different cells. different hormones. so how can i compare? both of them had their cons and pros ba.
I just wana live my life to the fullest. easily said den done. how to live my life to the fullest when all the things that had encircle my life is work work work work work.
im definitely not a workaholic. but the stupid wrk load in my current workplace is endless. lotsa reports, reclassifications, justifications, calls and time deposits etc. killing me it is. but i have my only joy with me always. thats 1 thing i love bout her. she had become my only joy.
Simply her smile, her small lil eyes , her alien look alike face. Make me smile. it warms my heart.. sounds cheesy but it does. yeeeeks.. cant stand myself. ahahaha
Love her i do. take one step at a time ba. sad to say, i still dun see a future. i know it will hurts u to read this sentence. but just keep in mind, at this point of my life. u are the only one i love. no other guys can take ya space in my heart.
as for future.. may u find a bf too.. whahaha.. =p
nah nah nah, i might stick with u till our hair turns grey. cos i think i lost the flirtatious and friendilness trait in me. sad to say, u manage to convert me to les. haha. good job. well done.
alrite end of entry.
posted by joConfession @ 11:44 PM
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