Monday, August 22, 2005

HELP... pls kindly dun read the below!!! Cos u all might think tat im insane...

I truely think that my family are all being capture by aliens in the middle of the nite..
First of all, my mum is gettin more n more vain.
Second of all, my dad is gettin more n more weak.
Third of all, im gettin more n more inhuman but at the same time im gettin more n more lovingly.

Firstly-->
Today, my mum crept into my bedroom around 6.05am!! Why i knew that it 6.05am, it becos i manage to open my small lil eyes n crept a look into my mobile.. damn! All my frens shud noe tat i hate being disturb in the early morn as it can get me cranky n wacky.. but she's my mummy n i cant scream or curse at her.. hai!
Eventualli i manage to crawl out of my bed around 8am to put on some lip balm for my lips..
Lately i simply cant stand my lips cracking.. hurts n ugly.. but guess wat!!! My lip balm, lip gloss, mascara, concealer, blusher, moisturizer all GONE!!! i got such a shock.. thot wat the hell happen.. did the good buddy from the other dimension came n took it all away from me???
In the end, after searching high n low for my stuffs, i found everything in my mum's bedroom....
Think the aliens have inputed in some vain hormones in my mum.. did i tell u tat she went to perm her hair and it doesnt turns out the way it shud look..
Okie, it does make her look old.. n she blame it on me.. say im happi to see her ugly!!!! wat is my mum thinking..
Mr or Mrs alien, if u r seeing this.. Im ANGRY with wat u have done!!!!

Secondly-->
My dad is simply angry with me not searching out the medical pills pros n cons n asking the pharmancy for advice on his heart problem.. din i said it b4, i realli dun think it so serious! Oh boy, juz change ya lifestyle to a healthier way n stop bothering ya dotter.. everything will be fine! but he juz simply show me his droopy wetty saddy hurt cold eyes.. manz!
Think the aliens have capture my dad n add in alot of woman hormones to him.. it make him so girl!! i cant stand it!
Oh boy, somebody pls tell me wat shud i do... i love him.. but it gettin on my nerves... argh...
Mr or Mrs alien, if u r seeing this.. Im Superb Duper ANGRY with wat u have done!!!!

Thirdly-->
I do think my dearies aliens have capture me too.. cos why? today i went out with my dee n dee's frens for lunch.. how sweetilicious lovely can i possible get.. it sometimes nice to hang out with young kids cos they r so youthful n full of crap.. hahaha..
Peops out there, U all shud noe tat i HAte human beings.. therefore it being concluded tat im a princess from MARS..
SO my dearies MArians out there.. pls go kill all the other aliens who had done such incorrigible acts to my family and i LOVE u all out there...

Hahaha.. seems like im a wacko here... but im not the jacko wacko.. im the joanko wacko.. hahaha.. plain lame.. hahaha
Alrite, im still normal.. but gettin abit cranky now n then.. but i know u all still loves me as who i am.. hehehe

On a more serious note:
The sun will rise with each new day
I have more clarity on the thots i have
I will become stronger against all odds in my life
Life isnt always sweet
And i do love the bittersweet in it as nothing is ever perfect..
Im simply finding the "perfection equilibrium" in this imperfect realistic world!!
SMilez!!

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

This is going to be a long post... think so.. cos alot of things going through my mind now...

Hmmm...
Not much stuffs happened lately
Just simply the same old bullcrap.. like a jackass still sms me.. opps.. i called him jackass.. ha.. alrite, he is still a nice jerk.

But im stronger this time.. maybe it becos i think i have some other someone on my mind??
Maybe? Yeah? or maybe im juz simply sick of the ways tat he treat me and all the self deniable excuses..

Argh.. y cant i be more true n brave?

Hmmm...
My dad been sick.. im realli not sure if it is realli such a serious disease.. but for all i know is tat heart disease are not curable so all he can do now is to adjust his lifestyle to a better type..
Drink more water.. healthier food.. exercise and stuffs..
But he is acting so weak.. so weak...
I felt bad for the way that i feel..
Im an optimistic girl.. i mean i look things on the bright side n i live in my own self denial world.. Tats why im bubbly.. tats why..
Everything happen for a reasons.. everyone will fall sick eventually..
I just wan him to get well.. get better and become more cheerful again..

Hmmm..

I missed gettin drunk.. think i got kinda high on alcohol tat day.. I missed the feeling.. light.. nothing on my mind.. keep smiling and laughing.. something tat i haven been doin lately..

Hmmmm......
Problems in my family, studies, relationships and friends... so why am i still alive?
It all becos i love living.. i love the unpredictable things tat happen.. the sense of ambiguous in life..
I think im sick.. someone please save me!

Saturday, August 06, 2005

alien language : ti ti dui ti dui ti da toe ta
Hmmm..
Makes me feels better... hmmm....
Alot of things going thru my mind... I never meet him or reply to his sms anymore...
Friends i thot we will be
But things turn out the other way
Maybe strangers will be a better way out
Easier for both u n me ...
Okie! i have decided... Im going to move on n have a brand new start...
No1 gonna make me hate myself again!
N.O.B.OD.Y

Friday, August 05, 2005

Hmmm...
Something shudnt be affecting me anymore but it still have it way to make me feel angry, pissed and sad...
Ugly human beings...
How can people be so hypocrate and act as if nothing have happen??
How can people be so fake?
How can it be....
I hate myself for being so fake.. y cant i juz treat ... as air... not visible to my sight
Shudnt even be angry over such stuffs..
But it still have a way to make me feel @#$#@%$#^$
Damn!